If I were a child again, I would know that
I would grow up someday and realize that I set goals and
I reached them.
I would enjoy myself and live life to the
fullest because..
I would grow up someday and know that I
could have fun and not look on as others had fun..
Silently dreaming of another life; I could
have that life of my choosing.
I would be inventive and gifted and not
ashamed because I was going to grow up someday and I could
make my dreams a reality
because I have the ability to do so.
I would not give the answers that others
expected me to give because I would grow up someday and
be able to feel free to make my own decisions and not
feel guilty..
Because it was what I wanted.
I would know that people are not to have
such control over others
that they give up trying because it was
always a no win situation
No matter what you did because..
I would grow up someday and put a safe distance
between myself and those I chose not to associate with,
because I would move space and distance and find the time
to heal.
I would shut my ears to the words spoken
against me;
-You are selfish, you will never amount
to anything, you are childish, not good enough, rebellious,
and defiant
retarded, unforgivin, a garbage picker,
trouble maker and I hope you have ten children just like
you;
Because I was going to grow up someday and
stop the record and push fast forward erasing all the
memories because I was able and I could use new coping
techniques and throw away what seemed to work then, but
ineffective later.
Because I could.
If I were a child again, I would know that
I was going to grow up someday and be able to pick my
family and friends and surround myself with positive people
in my life and push those aside
who tried to tear down the dreams of a child
and try to erase all
Hope; because I would know that I would
find people that were going to be there and I am not alone;
You see I chose to reach out and ask for
help,
Because I was worth the risk…
…and I did.
